kelly's room

Just a place where I can be myself...

Monday, June 06, 2005

and he said to me...

'In the perfect society, women would be programable robots...turn on when you want....turn off when you're done....create a "cleaning the house" option.' - and he laughed

I could not pretend I did not understand his reasons. We, women can get really annoying at times. Women have many needs. Women play games. Women won't keep it simple. I thought for a while, and said

' Well, robots...very expensive. And not worth it when it's clear that a man who is wise enough can take a girl and turn her into whatever he wants her to be. What is the most annoying thing about women? Low self steem...insecurity. That is what produces the flaws men so often complain about. The constant wish to talk about feelings, the jealousy, the simple need to cuddle...all comes from the same self steem problem. And why is it most women won't have sex freely? They don't love themselves enough to understand it is ok to feel pleasure when it's not connected with love. It is much more complex then that but....all is around the same thing...self steem problems. So, a wise man who works on it, will have anything from a woman....she will submit herself and maybe without even knowing it. Cause it's natural....that's what we really want....our essences are that of helpers. And we will make the most of our submission if we understand a man is powerful and strong enough to lead us. If we feel this way...we dont even care about feeling good about ourselves. We only wish to make him feel good...for as long as he wants...his whole life... a year...one night...it doesnt matter. A wise man will turn a girl into an innocent mom and housewife....or a limitless slut...or both if he is really good. He wont need a 'clean the house' command...we'll do it without he even has to ask. We'll be whatever this intelligent and strong man wants us to be.

He thought for a while...as if analysing all I had said. After some moments, he put his hand on his chin and said

' Nah......robots!'

Sunday, June 05, 2005

a lil more about me....

In my darkest side
In my hardest night
I pray for shelter
I cry for light
I do the things
I never would
If I had something
to hold on to
I am part of the wind,
I go with the flow
I am the girl laughing hard
and the woman you know
but I act all the time
I want wild, I need slowly
I will never be alone
but I am always lonely

Thursday, June 02, 2005

I don' t like your poems
They break the bounds of poetry
Leave me helplessly sore
And I struggle not to read
I don't like your literature
That barely qualifies as it
But it's your wors I hate
Above all things

*dazed in a net of fire, I feel
wishing I would be the one You praise
defenseless and chained, I fight, I feel
and I write words to unease You*

To hell with the never ending stanza
My eyes grow tired and my heart grows sick
Unconscious, meaningless sentences
If someone else understands, to hell with

Never ending ego
You love yourself through your words
You love yourself through your loved ones
You set your own love traps

Dreams you created
Love you made up
I wanna scream
I hate your poems